What Am i even doing???

should take it slow~. dont think too much~. take a Chill pill~. Give space.~ dont get too comfortable.~ Control.~ dont rush.~ dont use emotions as a decision.~

Outing with cuzzins

 

 

kittens~

wah my cousins got kittens, my frens got cats, my uncle and aunties got cats, my FB friends got cats & kittens.
WALAO~
i also want~~
haiz..
never mind.. maybe this feeling is just gonna be for awhile.. maybe... when i'm living alone on my own then i'll keep one for my self, i'll find that pure white kitten that i wanted so much~.
=)
hhmmmm...

All Day Religious outing.

Today the whole day all for religious. haha.
firstly when to the Muslim conversion center at payar lebar there to hear lectures on beginners for Muslim. why i go this lecture because firstly my close gym friend who is Chinese, few months back his converted from the religion he used to follow up by what he have grown up with to now Islam. So now he is still new with Islam and yeah his going for this lectures and classes there. so me and my friend, Syahir, accompanied him and through that accompany i actually brush up my self as a Muslim too. cause dosent mean ur born a Muslim u know everything. and so this is how i brush up my self slowly.
=)
so his name used to be Alex Tan, but now his name is Tanweer Tan.
Tanweer means rays of light. if i'm not mistaken~ haha.



and after the class i went with my friend Syahir  to Maulid Rasul at the woodlands Stadium. alot of praising Rasulullah s.a.w by different kinds of ways, like for example through musics they played zanji.. skeet, booths, poem speech, yea and much more. for 7 hrs. love the voices of the one who recites and also praises and also sings for the love of Rasulullah s.a.w (Y)(Y)
so here is a little something to let u guys hear, which i like to hear much and also i heard they sang it at the maulid rasul today..

Allah Humma Salli Ala Sayidina Muhammad~!

Random outing with my cousin

Okay today went out with my cousin Razzy to lucky plaza to play pool there. but before that we went to go pray at the near by mosque there at somerset..
anways
got a problem with this lady at the pool area. it is at the lucky plaza the only pool area there, seriously they need some customer service. this minah or Filipino girl like F-ing attitude, plz ah, u cannot work dnt work. u go and sit at home infront of the mirror and entertain ur own attitude, we dont need ur attitude we have ours. f-ing lady..

Haiyoo~...

k skip that...
anyways i never went out with this cousin of mine before, and today is our first random out. actually it was supposed to be just lending my soccer boots to him, but in the end ended up meeting and chilling out all night, seriously if today i didnt go out, it will be another day for me facing the comp and go blind. haha

so yea, anyways just gotten my third stick for today,
just smoke cause i want to, not sure if its the addiction?.. but yea basically its just a want to.. actually i do feel abit dizzy after a few puffs of the smoke. but yea manage to control it.

ok other then that, went to Shaw and yea my cousin, brought me to the place he usually chill out with his friends. and yea he bought a tub of pop corn which only cost $4+, i was kind of shocked by that cause its dam cheap. haha. and u know i really those pop corn-aholic, shall i call it that? haha.. yeah so, same goes with this cousin of mine.. yeah. talk here and there sharing taught,
so after all chilling around and walking at orchard then we just went straight home. 

Ok we will be having our cousin outing again, but with few more cousins invited. i'm looking forward for that =)
hope they could make it~

 

What do you think with or without? haha~

East Coast~

What should I say for today~

Went to East Coast park.
Just got nothing to do at home actually.
this was planned by me and Syahir yesterday.
Phone few of my friends yesterday but they all cant make it.
Its actually kind of last min thing though.
but today Its only Me, Syahir and Fakhrudin.

Din actually didn’t know of this outing. But today we ask him out. And glad that he is joining.
If not its will be only me and syahir. Haha. That will be abit boring... 

1stly why?
because I just feel abit un-comfortable going out with a guy 1 on 1 to the beach, haha. Its like awkward. If I’m with a girl I wont mind ah. Hahaha.

2ndly why?
because i'm those kind of person who dosent really got much topic, sometimes i do have lots but it depends and i just need a third person to just keep the ball rolling..
anyways~...
its been long time never go to such a beautiful place at the beach of east coast park and now I am here. So nice to be here. Very windy. So relaxing. If only my home is just near by here. Haiz~. Haha
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anyways today started smoking my first stick of LD blue packet.
smoking today of my 1st stick of my first pack so far i dont feel much of an effect of satisfaction or what shall i say complete?. its like u smoke but theres no results which u want to feel or know much?.. and yes its not menthol which u can feel the cold minty flavor just went in ur lungs, this one is just normal cigarette.

anyways had my 2nd stick after 8+?.. felt the erge of smoking the 2nd till i really did it. and yeah~
still the same thing.. u feel like u just smoke for nothing but u know.. to kill ur self? ..haha.. hmmmm...
when I’m smoking what I taught is like what the hell am I even doin?, its like no me at all. Hhmmm..
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anyways other then that, today I feel my kidney on the left abit cramp, I dunno why. Told my fren about it  then he said maybe u have no been working out for quite sometime that’s why u felt that way at ur kidney.. not sure if theres any link there but I hope this thing wont prolong. Hhmm.. so yea later we gonna go eat near by here also. So yea..
bye~
=)

(Y)This is the best cover i've heard so far~, do listen to it. u wont regret, love the rap part. (Y)
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A little something we all should know~

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Gd luck to me for today~

Getting back.

hhhmmm.. i shall follow what Nadia Comaneci says... hmmm.. i got my fears sometimes in my training, but not many sees that. i guess, but i tried to be cool about it not to loose my swag. hmmm.. i have not been in training for awhile, because of this experience Brazillian guy, he really wack the hell out of me from the last training.. hhmmmm.. but i did survived and not knocked out after few big hits...
i guess i should get back with it on Wednesday or Sunday and get back in shape.
"to overcome my fears i need to trample it beneath my feet."
hhmmm...
come Taufiq u are better than a coward you are not even a coward..
I CAN DO THIS.

whats this??

sometimes its weird when basic thing we should start from house and which we need to apply everyday but we do it at other places first instead at u know what i mean?.
whats this?.
hypocrite?, naive to once self?.
hhmmm...
i hope i'm not going to be like that in the future..

feeling from the past till now, It Stays~

This is what i'm doin~
i like you, but i know i cant have you thats why i distance myself.
And u have the person u love so much now.
dont want to crash that.
so i shall move on... like what my friends said~.

YEAH FINISH UT3~!

Ok today last UT, Physics..
i think i'm doing fine with it.. but still~
hhmmm.. nvm.
now need to wait for results..
anyways after physics UT went Orchard meet Shaz.
went to three place today.
First: School (UT3)
Second: Orchard
Third: Marina Square
Today stop by Starbucks at Orchard near Far-east there. nothing much to do so took a pic of myself and Photo-shop it and with the help of Shaz, my picture looks much nicer. haha. cool2
so here's the picture ^^

going back home from Raffles place station to Sembawang, got nothing to do then i start sketching/drawing. so here i share you what i draw. haha.

frustration..

Math UT~...
haizz... i just hope i wont need to repeat another 6months just for this module. sem1 i need to repeat my maths and i'm taking it this 2nd year.. *Fingers Cross*
oh god plz help me.

tmrw is physics test.. another test i couldnt be bothered.. my life in poly is like just to score for daily grades, tsk~
haiz...
for UT is like.. wash hands but still i do under whatever i know..

my life in poly is so mess up..

Hilarious day today with friends =D

Hello there..

would like to introduce a few of my friends which we had been closed.
This are my guy Friends which is from sem 1 and now i'm in sem2 of 1st year in RP, we still stick together till now. i hope our relationship as friends wont be broken. i really treasure this group much cause they are the one who actually really make my day.
but yet we cannot expect happiness to come everytime and we cant expect them to be by our side every time we are down cause everyone got life to do, this is just the life of a grown up. So its not always we need to meet together.
by the way actually the one who is taking this pic his name is Shaz is also part of the group, theres still few more of them which is not in the pic like Alif, Syafiqah, Amirah and Syaril. this guys should be in the pic too. The meet also wasnt expected actually for today, cause i taught of eating with my friend there in blue(khai) at south food court but ended up SHaz notice us and he call us to come over =)
hhmmm..

and yar today UT on Programming~
i'm so gonna Fail that. and yes, i cant be bothered about it also, i just do what i know~..
by the ways my daily grades for the module so far are good, so i hoping this daily grades will help me to just clear the module, so i no need to retake another year. *fingers cross*



Just something Shaz shared to us today~
abit lame, but some of them are funny. haha. theres still Volume 2 for this. just check it up on youtube. ^^

Risk taking~

I think i'm gonna start smoking and write a journal of it starting March 1st 2012.
and i'm gonna do it for a month or two. i'm gonna write a journal every time i start to smoke.

I know the consequences, i rather say its hard to explain in words. i know i'm just being ignorant about it. but this is just the choice that i'm taking.. hhhmmm...
when i do this, i'm not promoting anything to do with smoking

Just keep this between yourselves~
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Anyways today UT(Understanding Test) on FPD(Facility & Planning Design) really sucks big time.. cant do most of the questions. I'm so clearly gonna fail this module~. hmmm.. sometimes when i think about it again...i feel like.. much cant be bordered about it.. whats done is done~.
to hell with it.. hmm..

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K here i have something to share, just something that is random and it just came up to my mind. and here it goes...

Sometimes when we are too much to be good or do good and spread good sometimes we over do it until we are the ones who at the end are doing bad, doing something that we know it is wrong and just being ignorant about it.
why i say this?

because we are 'BITCHIN' about other people at their backs, when i said at their back which means in FB too(no offence)..
talking about the person what they should do this and that, wear this and wear that and we dont even realize that we, ourselves are doing the wrong things?.

if 'u think u are right on ur views and u want to do good. why dont u step forward with a proper approach and say nicely to the person instead of bitchin about the person?.'

i'm not saying that dont do good and do bad instead.
OH JOLLY WELL PLZ DO GOOD~,
But STOP the Bitchin about others~
what different are U?, WE?, ourselves from them when we are just bitchin about other people??.

think and ponder for me and you.
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and here another thing i would like to share which i see very beautiful which not anyone can get this kind of snap shot easily. 1 in a million, not everyday u can see something like this since we are land walkers,
so.. yes i got this from FB posts. ^^

this is what u see Raining from far sky high.

Story

@~sTory~@

ITS RAINING (^^)

Bon Jovi:
All About Lovin' You

Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me and you
Mistakes you know I've made a few
I took some shots and fell from time to time
Baby, you were there to pull me through
We've been around the block a time or two
I'm gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how we've come this far
The answer's written in my eyes

Chorus:
Every time I look at you, baby,
I see something new
That takes me higher than before
and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight,
dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

I've lived,
I've loved,
I've lost,
I've paid some dues,
baby
We've been to hell and back again
Through it all you're always my best friend
For all the words I didn't say
and all the things I didn't do
Tonight I'm gonna find a way

Chorus:
Every time I look at you,
baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before
and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight,
dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

You can take this world away
You're everything I am
Just read the lines upon my face
I'm all about lovin' you

Guitar Solo

Chorus:
Every time I look at you, baby,
I see something new
That takes me higher than before
and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight,
dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you
All about lovin' you

Gd Night~

.JUST A LITTLE SOMETHING I WOULD LIKE TO SHARE.

This past few weeks i dunno why, but i just feel like smoking.
smoking cigarettes... haiz..
maybe its just the board-ness that i am feeling this past few weeks..
hhhhmmmm.... still considering to smoke..
i know cigarettes is not the only solution i can go for.. but for now, i guess  that the only solution i can find.
u can suggest me others but still i'll tell you that i'm done with the suggestions ur giving me, cause most of the suggestion that you gonna give me is all in my head which i have think of. so... no point~
unless u got something that i never think of yet.

14/2/2012

"To enter the heart of the love ones is through tagging along with them on what they like to do much."
-Taufiq B.Ahmad Azami

Alrite just one more post for today.. something interesting to share.
not trying to say i perfect but, this is just sharing aye~. hehe.
got it on fb.

A British man came to Sheikh and asked: Why is it not permissible in Islam for women to shake hands with a man?

The Sheikh said: Can you shake hands with Queen Elizabeth?

British man said: Of course not, there are only certain people who can shake hands with Queen Elizabeth. 

Sheikh replied: our women are queens and queens do not shake hands with strange men.
Then the British man asked the Sheikh: Why do your girls cover up their body and hair?

The Sheikh smiled and got two sweets, he opened the first one and kept the other one closed.
He threw them both on the dusty floor and asked the British: If I asked you to take one of the sweets which one will you choose?

The British replied: The covered one.

The Sheikh said: that’s how we treat and see our woman....

ITS BEEN LONG

Wow. this is like YEARS long time never been here blogging??, haha.
cant imagine i'm still in this blog. ok firstly i'm in here because of this fav lil cuz of mine, haha. she ask me to come back in blog. haha. ok2. NOW I'M HERE~!
hahaha =)

ok i seriously not sure what i want to talk about.... but... lately, things have been tough for me.. school, passion, relationship status(Single) <--- hahaha..
so yar... haha. ok~
Life must goes on right?
=)
tmrw is valentines day? yea.. so i'm not celebrating as for i am a Muslim Islam.. so yar were not allowed. but to all who celebrating Happy Holidays aye.. go and have nice dinner with your love ones, date and lots more.. haha. so yea..

talking about yesterday.. its my cousins Wedding day. Alhamdulillah everything goes well.
SELAMAT PENGATIN BARU to you guys aye~.

so thats the pic of me and my fav lil cuz.
shes beautiful right? haha. yea. =)

and its been long time never see all my cuzzins.
and talking to them getting together with them is really cheering me up. lots of laughter, lost of warmth closeness.
(warmth closeness)??
how the hell i invented that? haha. i dunno how to describe, u guys describe it your self aye~. haha

oh yar not to forget in a few days time is my UT3 (understanding test 3)
gd luck to me.. 1st test will be Communication. yea gd luck to me. haha..
hhhhmmm.. so i guess till here?
Anyways i'm studying now actually suddenly remembered about my cuzzin. haha, so yea gotta get back to my studies..
so just catch me here again.. i'll try post things if theres time. Insyaallah.

Assalammualaikum~
^^